Note to Self:

I will no longer have friends whose friend I am only when convenient and/or ideal.

Further, I will no longer have friends who hang out with me only when I am the most convenient and/or ideal person with whom to hang out.

I will no longer associate myself with people to whom I give my heart, absolutely and wholly, and who in turn do not give me their's.

I will not be replaced by a boy. I will not be replaced by a girl. I am not replaceable.

I would like now to start binge drinking, reading manly Southern Gothic novels, writing shitty short prose, and attempting to learn, however unsuccessfully, to play the acoustic guitar.

I would like now to live on my own, in a place that I can decorate however tacky I see fit.

A place where the walls spell “Home,” where I can do my work in solitude, and where the stench is my own.

I will neither wait on nor wait for.

I will not be lied to, or cheated, or unappreciated, and if I am, may it be only to myself, from myself.